PLEASE comment if you can relate to pregnancy-induced anxiety!!
I have occasionally wrestled with feelings of fear or dread in my lifetime, usually in times of turmoil, but certainly not enough to be concerned or to seek help for it--and definitely not for no known reason!
The help I'm asking for is prayer.
I feel like it's all hormonal/physical, then intensified by ME just psyching myself out. It's like I get a hormonal surge, so my hands and feet get clammy, I start to sweat, my heart races and my lungs tighten. It's like going from normal to "fight or flight" mode, instantly! And usually, nothing I know of triggers it.
The first time, about two weeks ago, my hubby and I were having dinner and he mentioned that a friend wanted to come stay for a few days in May and I said, "Well, who knows what he'll have to put up with. We'll have a newborn and you know how unpredictable they can be!" and instantly, I felt "that feeling." Note, Andrew's newborn phase was a breeze and I had NO anxiety then...and I'm not truly worried about it with this baby! So we're talking about an unfounded fear of the unknown. I had to really breathe and give myself a chance to calm down, and Drew had to talk to me and remind me that everything was OK...and then it passed and I finished my dinner!
Today, I was feeling a little fatigued, so I laid on the couch, watching Andrew play on the back porch through the screen door. All of the sudden--probably because he'd turned off the fan when I asked him to turn off the light--I felt myself go all sweaty and felt that familiar feeling of anxiety...and my mind went to Facebook, where I'd read earlier that a friend had come down with a stomach flu (one of my least favorite things) and for a moment, I thought, "Oh, no! Does my stomach hurt?? What if I come down with it, too???" and there I was, panicked. It lasted several minutes as I laid there, trying to distract myself and also pray. I finally got up and busied myself with other things, then sent my hubby a text. He called, and by the time we hung up, I felt pretty much fine again, although there seems to be a lingering "after effect," intensified because it's been a long day and I'll be alone all evening. Later, I went on-line to look up "anxiety during pregnancy," but most of what's there assumes a pre-existing condition. A good laugh because of a Facebook comment and a Popcicle went a long way in making me feel better, too.
The worst part is how unpredictable it is...and that it's so unlike me! I'm not a "headachy person," either--so even a mild headache throws me off, because I'm not use to them. So it's like that--unfamiliar! And it makes me feel very out of control, which is only intensified by being pregnant, when you really aren't entirely in control!
So PRAY. Pray that I can find ways to cope...or better yet, OVERCOME THIS! I definitely don't want to deal with this close to the birth--I need to be strong, mentally and physically!
Pray that I don't let it become this "spiritual issue," thus inviting the enemy to get involved--as he is prone to messing with me when I am weak. Pray that I can hide under the covering of God and rest in his promises.
And just pray for my health and the health of the baby, as we near the "home stretch."